Adoption, domestic adoption, international adoption, adoption of a child with a special need(s)!! Why? Why do you do it?
Last week was such a roller coaster of emotions for us (well mainly me). With all going on in our life…especially our upcoming transition (PCS), so many thoughts and questions come to me. Each one that hit me, especially the ones that pierce my heart, I take them immediately to the feet of Jesus. Well I have to confess….yes I took them there but I wasn't leaving them there….I would take them back with me.
This adoption is totally different than our first adoption. This time, we are adopting a child with a special need; well he has a few. Let's just say that along with the cleft lip and cleft palate, can come other areas of challenges that stem from it. One in particular that I have a hard time swallowing that one of my children would have to fight hard to overcome. The other side of it, is making sure wherever we transition to, has all the resources we need to ensure JE has every opportunity to reach his full potential. And then its what I want…or what I envision….and what if this this or this happens….(mostly that's about the military move). THEN GOD…..he brought me to the end of me….had dinner with some family friends where God spoke clearly. My lack of trust in this adoption and move was rooted in my need to CONTROL…….woooooooooooooow (In my Patricia King voice)!! So the next morning…I laid before the Lord and relinquish my need to control….why do I do it….because I want to protect myself….I know better than anyone…I can't guarantee protection for myself to not experience pain and heartbreak.
And this week…I'm walking in His Love….I'm choosing to trust HIM and leave control at HIS feet!! Adoption will lead you to the place of Heart Surgery. What really is the condition of your heart? Are you willing to allow the adoption journey to bring out the areas in your life that needs some attention or a complete overhaul.
With all that was thrown at us this past week…including an email from the PI government asking for additional information (some very specific questions relating to parenting JE), we found ourselves asking…"What is the bigger picture?"JE needs a loving family; every child does…no one deserves to not have a family to love and call their own. JE hasn't had even an 1/100 of opportunity that many children get to thrive and be successful. God already knew the work He had called us to therefore He's been equipping us to handle them…even in our professions (in the beginning we didn't link to helping us to parent a child from hard places). He has given us children who have a heart for the "least of these"and open to love and make anyone feel special.
***Quick adoption update** The PI government has our dossier and has begun to review it. Please pray with us that it is review and a decision is made within the month like their process states. As for our financial need…we received an $1000 donation a week ago which means that we only need $7500 to be fully funded. Please consider making a donation via AdoptTogether or air miles would be a great blessing also (contact us directly if you would like to do so)!!
Until next time….
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